I've always wondered, "What if I have chosen another path?"
Will I still be who I am today?
Would I have been a better person?
Who am I exactly?
There are so many paths that I could have taken. But I ended up on this path. Things could have been very different. I might not have been a geek like I am now. I may even have been a gangster. But would I?
So it's said that "when you make choices, you don't look back."
But I can't help but wonder...
The possibilities.
Would I still be the cowardly self I am now? Not being able to face up to my fears.
Woke up at around 10 in the morning. I was meeting Joe and Sean at the MRT station at 4:15pm. Reached at 4:14pm. Waited till around 4:50pm. Yes, they took a damn long time to reach. Joe and Sean overslept somehow. Around 4:50pm, Joe arrived. We then took waited to board the train that Sean was in. The funny thing is when we boarded, Sean alighted. Sean actually said to take the next train. But I mistaken the meaning of it and took the train he was on. I didn't really understood why he would want to take the next train when we can just take this train he's on.
And so, we alighted at AMK and waited for him. And this time we boarded the train with him still in it. We chatted a little till' we reached City Hall to change train to Pasir ris.
When we reached Pasir Ris, we when for dessert. And then we walked around waiting for Yuwen.
After Yuwen arrived, we walked to the Chalet where we are going to celebrate Ash's Birthday. When we reached, Ash was waiting for the food to arrive. And when the food finally arrived, we took them back to the Chalet. This is my first time being there so I have no clue what it is like.
To my surprise, it's basically a Hotel Room with a BBQ Pit. Or in fact, a few BBQ pits. But the room is really small...
We just sat there and ate a little while we wait for Daniel and Suna. Daniel's work ended at around 3pm. But he needed to wait for Suna, whose work ended at 8:30pm. Poor Daniel...
When everyone arrived, we just ate and chatted a bit. Mostly, the night went through with Suna doing stupid things. Like pouring water at us. And in return, Yuwen took a cup and fill it with water and pour back at her. And the stupid thing is... She kept doing it.
After that, it's finally time to cut the cake! We took photos with the Birthday Boy and ate the cake. And we just sat around chatting, till around 12am. Then they decided to walk around. Which we then went out of the Chalet area and went to a nearby fishing pond.
We sat there and looked at people fish. Quite a lot of people caught fishes. The fishes looked rather large to me but Daniel said those are not called large. Instead, they are small.
After that we went to a nearby playground where we played the Swing, See-Saw, and this spinning chair that made everyone sick. I don't wanna talk about this.
And so, Joe became really nausea and felt like vomitting. I played it too, in fact, I spinned it myself and couldn't stop it. Daniel helped me stop. My head was spinning for quite some time and too, felt like vomitting.
We then went for some warm tea to let Joe feel a little better. Which didn't really help much. But we chatted and wasted time which made Joe feel a little better.
After we drank our tea, we went back to the Chalet and Joe went to the toilet and felt better after going to the toilet. Which then made him "high" again. xD
We reached the Chalet at around 3am. We wanted to go home at that time but they locked the door and we couldn't get in. We didn't want to disturb them so we just sat outside and chatted all the way till 6am whereby we went for our breakfast at the nearby Macdonalds. After eating, we continued chatting till around 7:30am then we headed back to the Chalet.
When we reached the Chalet, we are all very tired. And the best part is... I have Japanese lesson this afternoon.
Suna tried to sleep but Yuwen and Joe kept disturbing her sleep. They took an empty plastic bottle and scraped the stone table she was resting on. XD
Around 8:45am, Joe knocked the door and the door opened. I think it's Ash's dad, we then took our bags and left. Played a game of Monster Hunter which then I felt really tired after that.
Reached home at around 10am and I took a bath, brushed my teeth and washed my face. After typing these post. It's 11:15am now... I'm hungry now... And tired too... >.<
I think I'll make a cup of coffee to keep myself awake. I'm officially awake for 25 hours and still counting. The reason I'm not sleeping is because if I sleep and wake up later at around 12:30pm. I'll be damn tired... Cause I'll be sleeping too long, which causes my mind to go into deep sleep mode. lol
In my lecture group, these are the people I know who are playing it.
Daniel, Joe, Raygen, Chong, Yuwen, Rui Qiang, and Wei Yi.
And guess what?
Only Rui Qiang, Wei Yi, and I don't play cheat. Yuwen doesn't have the cheat either but he plays another version. We're playing Europe Ver. where as he is playing USA Ver.
I do have the cheat program but I refuse to use it on this game. Cause it kills the fun of the game. Sometimes I feel that I'm actually good compared to them who uses the cheat. Raygen somehow keeps trying to psych me into using the cheat program. Well, he just keep saying about playing cheat.
For example, he would say "This monster is too difficult, I'll use cheat."
as for me...
I REFUSE to use cheat!!! 絶対使わない！！！
But seriously, I've been playing so much that I am not really listening to the lectures...
Surprisingly, I passed all of the common test result known so far. ^o^
But I shouldn't get cocky... Over confident is gonna kill me. As so they say, "Double the Pride, Double the Fall."
Oh right. Today I had role play for my Communication Skills.
The first group to go was Rui Qiang's group. They seemed to have done really good. And at that point, I was kinda nervous. Pressurised. lol
The second group was my group. Unknowingly, I think I became the leader. Well, Karl is a good leader. So the calculation worked out. ^^
I'm not gonna say what we did as I'm lazy to write it out.
The last group was Ash's group. Which was really hilarious! I swore I smile/laugh till my cheeks were gonna cramp. LOL!
It was kinda fun today.
Tomorrow's, my favourite day. Wednesday. Why? Because it's when all computering stuffs meet. Having Data Networking from 8 to 10, and Micro Processor from 10 to 1. And then it's time to go home. Well, that's probably half the reason. The other half is because I sorta learn only at the labs. Since I don't listen in lectures. :P
My life's been a mess right now.... I don't know what to do....
I'm so Bored!~
Tomorrow's my Japanese class again.. I'm kinda losing interest in it.. Well, not exactly losing interest in it. But I'm just kinda tired of studying it.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh~
I've changed my blogsong/video to Arashi - Everything.
Woke up in the middle of the night at around 1am from a message from my classmate, Ash. Telling me to lend him study materials for EG2120, which in this case means my Revision paper.
When I woke up from that Ring tone of mine. I couldn't even tell it was my phone ringing until about 7 seconds after hearing it. Cause I was too still asleep, literally. After reading the message, I went back to sleep.
Then I was woken up later at around 6am because I couldn't feel my hand. LOL
I had my head on my hand, stopping bloody from flowing to my hand. So I ended up with a hand which I couldn't feel. I could barely move it because I could only move a small part of my arm and the other parts was heavy. So I ended up with my hand smacking my head like a piece of meat.
Then I started rubbing my hand to try and revive... err... Regain blood flow. I don't know why I would do that actually. I mean, this is not the first time this happened to me. But I'd say this was the first time which is a little serious. Cause it took me quite a while to get my hand back.
Hahaha! I'm amused at my creepy/disgusting way of saying things. XD
Anyways, as I was saying, I do not know why I'd rub my hand to regain blood flow. But it's probably due to some knowledge I picked up and used without really thinking.
Like for example, if I get fever. I'll sweat it out to cool my body down. However, sometimes I couldn't sweat. So I'll just drink a lot of water and keep going to the toilet to cool my body. I mean, the idea just came up without any clear thoughts going through them.
So! Back to today.
It rained heavily in the morning. Really heavy. When I looked out of my window it was all dark. Even though it was 7 in the morning. It was real dark. But it lightened after a while. Which then I went to school.
But guess what? The teacher was late! Jeez, I should have left later. lol
So the first lesson was EG2120 Lab for 2 hours. And then later EG2009 Lab for 3 hours. But I was able to complete it in 2. Some of my classmates finished too, so we went to eat our lunch together while waiting for Raygen. Cause Raygen is gonna bring Rui Qiang, one of my classmate, to buy a Modified PSP.
After eating, they went to buy the PSP while I headed home. And so now I'm here blogging. I'm sooooo tired... I think I'm gonna go get myself a cup of coffee before I fall asleep. hehe
Was suppose to be meeting for dinner with my polymates. However, it was cancelled last minute due to a reason I do not know. But from the what Joe exclaimed. It appears the reason lies with Suna.
We were suppose to be having another class bonding/meeting with Sindy/celebrating our survivor of Common Tests.
I don't understand why it was cancelled. Missing Suna probably just means that it's less amusing since there's no one to tease. But maybe it's not being able to have everyone meet together that is the problem.
Actually, either way is fine with me. Frankly speaking, I didn't really want to go. :x
Hehe, okay.. Let's change the subject.
I've just finished watching a Japanese Drama called, Absolute Boyfriend or Zettai Kareshi.
It's a really nice show. It's very funny ^^
However, the ending was touching. I could have cried if I wanted to. (>.<)
I probably can't stand people sacrificing themselves for others. It's kinda just too sad. (Maybe it's just something in the show that triggered my sub-conscious)
Anyways, this is a good drama. I'd recommend people to watch it.
Tomorrow's the start of my school days again. How unfortunate, having to wake up at 6:30am in the morning. I know I'm waking up way too early considering I live close to school. However, I'd rather be early than late. Heh, I think I said something like this before. ^^
Oh yeah, the theme song of the JDrama, Zettai Kareshi, is good too. It's called Okaeri by Ayaka Iida.
I'm gonna post in onto my blog. So you guys can hear it too. ^^ It's a video though, so I had to put it in that template in order to see the video. Oh, my blog has this effect that makes the things translucent. So you may not be able to see it clearly. Sorry~
After eating breakfast with my parents I headed to a nearby Salon to cut my hair. There were quite a number of people there so I had to wait. In fact, I waited for about an hour. I wish I had brought my PSP along. *sigh*
Anyways, it was my turn to cut and the guy asked what style I wanted. I said I want to thin my hair and layer the back. But apparently, he thin, cut shorter, and layered my whole head!!!
My hair came out to be way shorter than I expected... It's kinda like, after all this time I grew an inch and a half and he just took an inch away... Just so you guys know, I kinda wanted to leave it long. It's a bloody big difference!!!
My hair's now so short that it reminds me of Yuwen, one of my classmates.
Oh my god... (>.<)
I think next time... I'll just say "I want to thin my hair, nothing else."
Today, while I'm walking home. I heard this song on my MP3, きっと大丈夫(kitto daijoubu).
And I felt like putting the song here for those you might wanna listen to it.
It's from Arashi, my favourite group. :P
I'm putting the lyrics and the translation of it that I found.
*****きっと大丈夫*****
~romaji~
When I was driving in that night kizukeba mada tashika ni hora sora ni Twilight hikari ga naku tomo nai nara mada mada You shouldn't cry cry cry Tell me what u wanna "ah ah" Weekend gonna make luv "ah ah" from Monday to Sunday every every every day lucky lucky lucky my life
raki raki beibu shigoto wa rasuto no oo mai guruubu naka naka beibu kyou wa tanoshii! (asa made!) shaka shaka beibu kimochi wa hachibunme ii ja nai! warukunai! ai ja nai?
awai kioku ga yomigaettara kimi ga waratteru wakakatta kisetsu no ashiato wa namima ni kirakira kiete yuku
itsumo onaji membaa de katari atta kono basho ni ima (bai bai) kono keshiki kokoro ni yaki tsukete asu he fumidasou!
raki raki beibu shigoto wa rasuto no oo mai guruubu naka naka beibu kyou wa tanoshii! (asa made!) shaka shaka beibu kimochi wa hachibunme ii ja nai! warukunai! ai ja nai?
raki raki beibu benkyou mo rasuto no oo mai guruubu naka naka beibu kyou mo tanoshii! (asa made!) shaka shaka beibu kinjo no omatsuri mo ii ja nai! warukunai! ai ja nai?
seken wa amakunai nametetara sugu ni boro ga deru atari mae ga dekitenai kantan demo wakatta furi wa mou yameyou ano hi kimi to mita yume wo nakusanai de akiramenai de (oorai!) hajime kara yari naoseba ii sa nando taorete mo!
raki raki beibu majime ga uri desu oo mai guruubu naka naka beibu kyuu joushou! (sora made!) shaka shaka beibu kejime ga kaname to ka ii ja nai! warukunai! ai ja nai?
raki raki beibu jiken wa genba no oo mai guruubu naka naka beibu kyou wa tanoshii! (asa made!) dokidoki beibu renai shuugyou chuu ii ja nai! warukunai! koi ja nai?
itsumo onaji membaa de katari atta kono basho ni ima (bai bai) kono keshiki kokoro ni yaki tsukete asu he fumidasou!
kitto daijoubu
mawari michi mo tama ni wa warukunai! sonna koto de nayande nai nai! chikara nuite yasunde ii ja nai! mou ichido utaou!
Let's get back to the hook mado wo akereba asu no sora mo hareru hazu kitto sore ga kate ni naru kyou mo tanoshimi morenaku itsumo asetteta ano hi no boku ni aereba omoi tsutae sakebu sa "yume wa dekkaku kou egaku"
raki raki beibu shigoto wa rasuto no oo mai guruubu naka naka beibu kyou wa tanoshii! (asa made!) shaka shaka beibu kimochi wa hachibunme ii ja nai! warukunai! ai ja nai?
raki raki beibu benkyou mo rasuto no oo mai guruubu naka naka beibu kyou mo tanoshii! (asa made!) shaka shaka beibu kinjo no omatsuri mo ii ja nai! warukunai! ai ja nai?
~English~
When I was driving in that night, for sure I noticed that still in the sky's twilight nothing was lit. But not yet, You shouldn't cry cry cry Tell me what u wanna "ah ah" Weekend gonna make luv "ah ah" from Monday to Sunday every every every day
lucky lucky lucky my life Lucky lucky baby, my job is the last of my groove. Today will be full of fun, baby! (Until morning!) Scrape baby, my emotions are just right. It's okay! It's not bad! Isn't it love?
If I resurrect faded memories, you were laughing. The footprints of a younger season disappear, glimmering amongst the waves.
Always having the same members, talking about this place now. (Bye bye) to this printed scenery in your heart. Let's step forward into tomorrow!
Lucky lucky baby, my job is the last of my groove. Today will be full of fun, baby! (Until morning!) Scrape baby, my emotions are just right. It's okay! It's not bad! Isn't it love?
Lucky lucky baby, my studies are also the last of my groove. Today will be full of fun, baby! (Until morning!) Scrape baby, the neighborhood festival too. It's okay! It's not bad! Isn't it love?
The world is not kind. Its fault revealed immediately. Cannot do the usual. It's simple, but I'll stop pretending I understand. The dreams we saw back then, don't lose them, don't give up on them. (Alright!) It's best if we start over again from the beginning. No matter how many times we fail!
Lucky lucky baby, my earnestness is the top seller of my groove. Today is a steep climb up! (Towards the sky!) Scrape baby, if distinction is the keystone. It's okay! It's not bad! Isn't it love?
Lucky lucky baby, the scene of the incident of my last groove. Today will be full of fun, baby! (Until morning!) Heart pounding baby, I'm in the middle of my study of love. It's okay! It's not bad! Isn't it romance?
"How are you today? Baby", calling you senior is awfully formal. An invitation that's almost a command. I managed my personal appearance, (Lady) L.U.C.K.Y D.A.Y pass by and it's a new world. "It's delight!" Why don't you try changing your seat? wicked wicked wicked every time.
Always having the same members, talking about this place now. (Bye bye) to this printed scenery in your heart. Let's step forward into tomorrow!
It's definitely alright.
A detour isn't so bad sometimes! Don't worry about something like that! Relax, why don't you take a break! Let's sing again!
Let's get back to the hook If you open the window the sky tomorrow should also be clear. That will surely become provisions, enjoy today without them running out. If I could meet my impatient me from those days. Conveying my emotions, I will yell, "Your dream is big, realize them."
Lucky lucky baby, my job is the last of my groove. Today will be full of fun, baby! (Until morning!) Scrape baby, my emotions are just right. It's okay! It's not bad! Isn't it love?
Lucky lucky baby, my studies are also the last of my groove. Today will be full of fun, baby! (Until morning!) Scrape baby, the neighborhood festival too. It's okay! It's not bad! Isn't it love?
